Reflections

Recently I was inspired to take out my old diary. I was never really consistent with the entries and wrote sporadically. I'm obviously not going to use this post to explain my life story or anything because if I haven't told you then you shouldn't know. And only I need to know the stuff I wrote in my diary. I can tell where I started developing sarcasm from my diary entries which is pretty amusing. My first attempts at sarcasm were pretty fail. I drew things once in a while and they were really bad but looking back at them makes me laugh. Most of my diary entries are in pencil, and I can see the spots that I went back and corrected my past self's grammar the last time I looked at it. I think I was a pretty dull person when I was younger, I have an entry two sentences long saying that I played video games all day and finished a report or something. I was also very vague in a lot of my entries for some reason which I now regret. I saw where my aunt and uncle gave me CDs for my birthday and I don't know which ones they were even though I would really like to know. The two most recent entries I have in my diary were pretty strange to look back on. Things have changed a lot in a little less than a year. Those entries were pretty angry, but almost everything I was angry about at the time don't make me mad anymore. With 33 sentences that start with "I hate that" I sure ranted a lot. I don't recall any memories, but the emotions at that time I do remember. I know at the time what was happening sucked, but I made it through and I feel like I emerged victorious over my old perspective on life.

So during this post I had this song in my head from Mulan. It is relevant because it's called "Reflection" so don't go thinking this is totally ADD. It's only a little ADD.

Dear N00b Brother

This post is to you, younger but not so little brother. You who enjoys making fun of someone named 'Ken' at red lights with me. You who call everything I do 'illegal'. And you who makes me so frustrated that I would like to throw a pie at you but don't because you would like it. Our bonding experiences have included: lightsaber duels, dance-offs, and the game of "who can get to the car first to ride shotgun". Maybe you don't wish me a happy birthday until the day after, but it's fun because now I can reciprocate that. Which reminds me of a few years ago when you had a birthday party and your friends were all 20 minutes late and I, being the evil older sister, went outside around the house, rang the doorbell, and ran away from the door. You went to the door excited to see a friend but was disappointed to see that it was in fact nobody (unless your friend was wearing an invisibility cloak at the time). Even though you never let me play video games with you anymore (probably because I win too much), I know you want to preserve your dignity so I let it slide. But then, I tell everyone how bad you are anyways. Proclamations of “You’re so cheap” do not help with your reputation and you should learn this. And in our recent trip back to childhood via Neopets, I have already beat you so many times in Beach Volleyball that I would need another chalkboard to continue the tally marks. At every chance you can you mock me, but it's okay because according to Rachel from Big Brother, "The highest form of flattery is being mocked". Or something like that I don't remember the quote. And now I end this post. I have rightfully called you a n00b and you deserve this highest title as my brother.