Tuck the Darkness In

I know the 2 people who follow this blog probably don't even go on blogger anymore but I really needed to talk about this somewhere.

So today on tumblr one of the people I follow posted something that basically resembles a suicide note titled "Goodbye All!" and reads as follows: "Things have happened in my life . Some horrible stuff . Well I always believed we can deal with anything . But turns out I was wrong . Some things you can never deal with . There is no going back , nothing to go back to . Everything must end here , Life must end here . Meet ya’ll in heaven . I have had a great time with you all and I have always loved you all . I’m leaving this blog behind as my memory . Goodbye all . Take care"

Now, this is someone I've never really talked to, never met, someone who lives on the other side of the world in India. Even so, I almost cried when I read what she posted. More than half of the people on my tumblr are talking about her and hoping she's okay even though none of us ever met her face to face. She blogs a lot about the show Castle and somehow word got out to the Castle cast on Twitter of what was going on and they have all tweeted to say they care. Nobody knows how she's doing now; she posted that about 8 hours ago.

This just makes me think that stuff like this happens every single day and we don't even know about it. It's really sad because it makes you wish you could have done something to make it better for someone who's in that state of mind. Even if it's irrational, it's hard not to think that you could have helped in some way. And even practical strangers care about people who are considering suicide.

In some way this whole thing has made me realize I could never do it. I used to have bouts of depression once in a while and it would cross my mind for brief moments, but now I know I wouldn't do it. There's just so much I have to live for.

Anyways sorry for the depressing post but I needed to get this off my mind.

Update: She just posted on her Twitter that she is alive

Where Are We Going?

While waiting to see Nick Offerman today, I noticed something I found really weird. One row in front of me there was a guy and a girl sitting next to each other but not talking to each other; the guy was on his phone and the girl was pretty much staring into space. I figured they didn't know each other but then a few minutes later they started engaging in what I have termed 'excessive PDA'. There I was thinking they didn't even know each other at all.

A few impatient minutes of waiting later, I noticed another guy sitting next to a girl and they also weren't really talking to each other. This time both of them were on their phones doing who knows what. I again deduced they didn't know each other because of the lack of acknowledging each others' existence. Yet again I was wrong; apparently they are a couple too.

I don't know if I can overgeneralize from this small observational study of mine but the implications for the direction 'couplehood' appears to be moving seems sad to me. If two people who are together can sit next to each other and practically ignore their significant other in place of doing something on their phone then what does that say? Seems to me people would rather be with their phones than with someone they care about. If that's where we're headed it's not like I can change it but I do want to comment on it because it bothers me more than it should.