Here Comes A Rant

Dear Ms. Obnoxious,

Yeah that's right, I'm talking to you. Maybe you don't know who you are or how much you annoy me, because while you're so annoying you're also ignorant. You should be glad that I don't use the skills I've picked up from the video game medium to somehow make you explode or assassinate you or something like that. The only good thing I've gotten from you is a much better ability to ignore someone and I've also become way more patient. And even with this increased patience I still have trouble not screaming at you daily.

You who talks so loud that in a library you can be heard from the other side of the entire building. You yell into the intercom and give me a heart attack every time you come on to say the library is closing even if I know you're about to do the announcement. It annoys me when you take much longer breaks than anyone else does and nobody says anything to you about it. Actually, nobody says anything about everything you do wrong (which is a lot) not even our boss. Which also is extremely obnoxious. Do they think you're delicate or something just because you're the youngest one at work? Staying in break for 10 extra minutes every day and getting paid the same as people who actually work when we're supposed to be just doesn't seem fair.  Oh, and stop making the rest of us do unnecessary extra work because we don't appreciate it.

Don't get me wrong: I'm in no way saying that you're a mean person, it's just that you are so dense that you don't seem to realize what you're doing. Either that or you're trying to sabatoge us, in which case please stop. At first I thought I was just being bitchy and not liking you for no reason which I admit I do sometimes, but the moment I found out I wasn't the only one who was annoyed with you I felt much better. Leaving two people to clean the entire library in 20 minutes while you calmly put books away that used to be in the right place in the back room so other people have to put them back where you took them from is not fun. And then we both have to stay at work late to finish the minimal work you managed to accomplish while you leave on time. I know it may not be your fault for talking loud or even being socially awkward, but the appearance you give to everyone is that you're purposely trying to piss us off. If you are and I find out I will be very displeased to say the least.

Oh and back to break time; do you not know how to turn off the noises from your phone? Sure I realize now that you are practically begging for someone to initiate a conversation with you, but this desperation makes people not want to talk to you. Turn off those noises before I grab your phone from you and slam it into the wall because I don't want to have to pay for a replacement phone for you. Playing your DS with a game where you have to repeatedly blow into the microphone is just awkward. Next time try playing a normal game where you hit buttons for the sake of my sanity. Maybe your technology in general should just get taken away from you during break time because you also do that thing where you put your music way too loud so other people hear it. I'm not sure why, but that always pisses me off no matter who does it. The point of using earphones is so other people don't have to hear what you listen to so putting it that loud totally defeats the purpose. Oh and it also defeats your eardrums. During those times I pray that the vending machines will decide that they need to be colder for a little while and get louder so I don't have to hear your whatever the hell it is you even listen to.

How I wish I could say all of this to you. I know I shouldn't let you bother me so much, but you just do. Rant over. Kthxbai.

I Have No Title for This

Well, since my posts have been long, boring, and depressing lately I'm going to just post some videos up here. Most of them are just random but some are chosen for my own reasons ;]


If you couldn't tell, the awkwardly cute little boy is Seth Green. And he has mouth jewelry. The clip is from the 1988 movie My Stepmother is an Alien which I now have to see because I must see cute little Seth Green.


Cheese Dude; 'nuff said


This makes me laugh every time.


I love James Marsters XD


So true.


There is nothing I can say about this. It's too awesome for words to describe.

A Moment Lost

I hate how days can feel like years and years can feel like days. High school seems like it's just "A moment lost" in my life as the title says (it's a song). As time blurs together and memories do too, I wish there was some way for me to preserve them. But at the same time there are things I would rather forget (and sadly it's usually the things I want to forget that I remember most). I know that after I graduate high school in a little less than a month, I won't even talk to most of the people I have gotten to know throughout those four years even though that's not very many people. Half of me wants to make the most of the time we have left but the other half wants to just have the heartbreak now and get it over with because I know the more time I spend with my friends the more I'll miss them. I'm sure that I'll make friends in college (or at least I hope so) and it's possible that one of them will be my best friend for the rest of my life, but right now I don't want to; I want to keep my friends that I have now with me forever. I know a lot of this is because of my aversion to social contact with people I hardly know. Making new friends has always been hard for me and I've lately been realizing that most of my friendships have only come about because of other friends. My friendship with one person led me to a friendship with a few other people and then those led to me meeting other people. The whole thing became a chain and it's sad that I now hardly even talk to the person who started the chain. The lowest point I've ever had in my life was when I had only one friend in school and I'm scared to death that I'll go through the same thing in college.

I also always seem to have the problem of me wanting to stay friends with someone even after I don't see them every day anymore but they really don't. My friends from middle school seem to not care to keep in touch with me even though I've made so many attempts to keep in contact. I'm so afraid that the same thing will happen with the friends I've made in high school too, but I do at least aknowledge now that it will happen so it won't be as saddening. Most of what kills me about it is how I know that some people will tell me that we'll keep in touch and it just won't happen despite my attempts. And those types of things are really the things I remember most only to never talk to those people again. I know I'll want to carry on like nothing has changed, but my brain is slowly comprehending that I won't see these people 5 days a week for the rest of my life. Even now as I'm writing this my stomach is knotting up and my head is starting to hurt just thinking about it. It's this gut-wrenching feeling that makes me know that I'll be an emotional wreck at graduation. At the same time though, people will change during college and sometimes it could be dramatic; there could be a possibility that I wouldn't want to be their friend anymore after college because of how they've changed but there's also the opposite situation of me changing to the point where they don't like me anymore.

Recently I've been keeping a sort of journal/diary type thing to hopefully improve my memory but I'm very hesitant about describing too much in it because I have the habit of looking back at things and getting sad over how things used to be even if I wasn't as happy at that time. I tend to look at old pictures and things I wrote a lot and I know that reading all these entries in the future will most likely just make me sad. But at the same time I'm trying to improve my memory so maybe it will be worth it in the end somehow.

Super rant over. Had to get this out of my head.

"The bonds we form help us down the path less lonely
but eventually, we lose each other in the darkness."