I'm one of those people that often criticize myself for things I do. Sure this does sometimes lead to a slightly depressing state of mind, because knowing that you have flaws doesn’t make you feel in any way better. In my opinion, this actually helps improve character because if you at least acknowledge the flaws you have (and everyone, despite what they may say) has them, you can try to adjust for it. Some people don't like to criticize themselves and think about what they've done wrong because this makes them sad or hate themselves. To me, it’s essential to learn to hate yourself for the certain parts of you that need to be fixed or can be bettered and before you can go and criticize someone else for something, it’s imperative to criticize yourself. I agree that it's not necessarily important to everyone that they spend time to reflect on the past and criticize yourself, because what's past is past, but if we don't learn from our mistakes, then we keep making them. The only way we can learn from this is if we first acknowledge that we have that flaw and learn to compensate for it.
I also tend to think very pessimistically about things when I take time to think about certain situations. This way, I can always be prepared for what, to me, is the worst outcome that could happen, although I do know that this mentality is also bad. When I go into a test thinking that I won’t do well or try to do homework that I think I can’t do, it makes it more difficult than it really is. The mentality you have towards things really affects how you perform which is a downside to thinking the worst. But when you think the best and when it doesn’t happen, you’re disappointed. And one of my least favorite things is disappointment. We’ve all been faced with it and when it happens it just crushes us; especially if it was important or if you were really looking forward to it. This is the worst for me regarding my opinions on people. No matter how much I say I hate when people pre-judge, I do it myself and typically think the worst of them when I know I shouldn't. Thinking of how that person annoys me or affects me in some way. I know people have the tendency to be selfish, and I know even I am no matter how hard I try not to, I do it too. There are some flaws that are just human nature and that can't be fixed no matter how hard you try to change it, and thinking about these definitely isn't something that makes you want to get up and dance in joy.
9/29/10
9/27/10
Off-Topic Babble Nonsense
I have such a descriptive title for this post, I know. You really don't need to read this if you're looking for something interesting. If you want something to laugh at, I'm basically volunteering myself with this post. Otherwise, go back to your lives.
Lately I've been having really random urges to do things that aren't normal for me. I know some things I do aren't normal for 'normal' people, but these urges are way out there. How can someone be normal anyways? There is no such thing as 'normal' everyone has something weird about them even if people don't necessarily know what it is. Being 'normal' would also be extremely boring. For some reason that just reminded me of a Buffy episode where Buffy can read people's minds. Oz (Seth Green ♥) says that by Buffy being able to read his mind, he ceases to exist because that makes his thoughts available to someone else and in this way it doesn't matter if he exists or not. Same with all the fad following people out there. If they just do and act like everyone else does or as they are told to, then what does their existence mean? We don't need 2 million people that have the same hair and clothes and act the same in the world. We need people that think like their own individual self and have their own unique ways to do things.
On a completely unrelated note I just read on Twitter a tweet that says "Exclusive First Look: BONES love triangle gets complicated". This is confusing because maybe I'm wrong here but love triangles are always complicated, duh. How can they get even more complicated?! Also, why is it a triangle? Three people could also form a circle if they wanted to. If there's more than three people in a 'love triangle' how is it a triangle?
I'm already running out of things today I'm very boring. There's a song I've been listening to on repeat since Saturday. If I was in a sad mood, this song would be really depressing, but thankfully I'm not so I just like it because it's pretty sounding. And I don't know how something can sound 'pretty' because 'pretty' is generally a word you use to describe the visual appearance of something. Adjectives are really annoying, people use them a lot in the wrong way and for some reason that bothers me even though I do the same thing. I also realized this weekend as I went through a large number of instrumental songs, that songs without words can speak a message even clearer and more passionate than ones that actually have words. With instrumental songs, you make your own meaning about it and that meaning can change every day. Don't get me wrong, I love lyrics, they're easy to quote when I don't know how to say something myself, and put things in a lyrcistic (is that a word?) way which makes things seem nicer. Or really mean. Anyway I didn't want to ignore my blog for too long and felt like writing something although obviously I didn't know what to talk about which means I decided to make a random post of stupid things for fun.
EDIT: I was also thinking about something else on a related note of listening to the same song over and over again. Why do we do that when in the end, we get so sick of listening to it that we hate it? Do things lose meaning when we repeat them; or do they gain extra layers to them every time? Just some things to think about.
Lately I've been having really random urges to do things that aren't normal for me. I know some things I do aren't normal for 'normal' people, but these urges are way out there. How can someone be normal anyways? There is no such thing as 'normal' everyone has something weird about them even if people don't necessarily know what it is. Being 'normal' would also be extremely boring. For some reason that just reminded me of a Buffy episode where Buffy can read people's minds. Oz (Seth Green ♥) says that by Buffy being able to read his mind, he ceases to exist because that makes his thoughts available to someone else and in this way it doesn't matter if he exists or not. Same with all the fad following people out there. If they just do and act like everyone else does or as they are told to, then what does their existence mean? We don't need 2 million people that have the same hair and clothes and act the same in the world. We need people that think like their own individual self and have their own unique ways to do things.
On a completely unrelated note I just read on Twitter a tweet that says "Exclusive First Look: BONES love triangle gets complicated". This is confusing because maybe I'm wrong here but love triangles are always complicated, duh. How can they get even more complicated?! Also, why is it a triangle? Three people could also form a circle if they wanted to. If there's more than three people in a 'love triangle' how is it a triangle?
I'm already running out of things today I'm very boring. There's a song I've been listening to on repeat since Saturday. If I was in a sad mood, this song would be really depressing, but thankfully I'm not so I just like it because it's pretty sounding. And I don't know how something can sound 'pretty' because 'pretty' is generally a word you use to describe the visual appearance of something. Adjectives are really annoying, people use them a lot in the wrong way and for some reason that bothers me even though I do the same thing. I also realized this weekend as I went through a large number of instrumental songs, that songs without words can speak a message even clearer and more passionate than ones that actually have words. With instrumental songs, you make your own meaning about it and that meaning can change every day. Don't get me wrong, I love lyrics, they're easy to quote when I don't know how to say something myself, and put things in a lyrcistic (is that a word?) way which makes things seem nicer. Or really mean. Anyway I didn't want to ignore my blog for too long and felt like writing something although obviously I didn't know what to talk about which means I decided to make a random post of stupid things for fun.
EDIT: I was also thinking about something else on a related note of listening to the same song over and over again. Why do we do that when in the end, we get so sick of listening to it that we hate it? Do things lose meaning when we repeat them; or do they gain extra layers to them every time? Just some things to think about.
9/17/10
Idioms (Part 2)
Since I'm really bad at thinking of things to write on my blog and feel bad if I ignore it even though not many people read it, I'll continue my idioms post. By the way, most of the posts in the middle between the phrase and my thoughts are copied from a website and kudos to them for doing all that research about these phrases so I can make sarcastic remarks about them (which is what everything is made for, yes?).
Phrase: "Raining Cats and Dogs"
One possible origin is that the phrase derives from mythology. Dogs and wolves were attendants to Odin, the god of storms, and sailors associated them with rain. Witches, who often took the form of their familiars - cats, are supposed to have ridden the wind. Well, some evidence would be nice. There doesn't appear to be any to support this idea. It has also been suggested that cats and dogs were washed from roofs during heavy weather; which obviously doesn't make sense. Another suggestion is that 'raining cats and dogs' comes from a version of the French word 'catadoupe', meaning waterfall but there's no evidence for this either.
Thoughts: I always had the inane hope that there was a case where it actually rained literal cats and dogs. Then I'd get to go swimming in a sea of (hopefully) cute and fluffy animals and that's one of my life goals (obviously).
Phrase: "Take the Cake"
It is widely supposed that this phrase originated with cake-walk strutting competitions, which were commonplace in the black community of the southern USA in the 19th and early 20th centuries. In those, couples would be judged on their style in the 'cake-walk'. The winners were said to have 'taken the cake', which was often the prize. As early as the 5th century BC the Greeks used 'take the cake' as symbolic of a prize for a victory.
Thoughts: This is disappointing. I was hoping for a story about how someone literally stole a cake and ate it or something. Is the 'cake-walk' like the 'cat-walk'? 'Cake' and 'cat' do both start with the same two letters.
Phrase: "Make A Bee-Line For"
The phrase derives from the behavior of bees. When a forager bee finds a source of nectar it returns to the hive and communicates its location to the other bees, using a display called the Waggle Dance. The other bees are then able to fly directly to the source of the nectar, i.e. 'make a beeline' for it.
Thoughts: I cracked up when I read the 'Waggle Dance' part. Did you? If you didn't, try saying it aloud and not laughing. If you still don't laugh you have issues and should be committed to a mental institution (just kidding but seriously it's funny).
Phrase: "Saved By the Bell"
This is boxing slang that came into being in the latter half of the 19th century. A boxer who is in danger of losing a bout can be 'saved' from defeat by the bell that marks the end of a round. There is a widespread notion that the phrase is from the 17th century and that it describes people being saved from being buried alive by using a coffin with a bell attached. The idea being that, if they were buried but later revived, they could ring the bell and be saved from an unpleasant death. The idea is certainly plausible as the fear of burial alive was and is real.
Thoughts: Kinda makes me feel bad for saying I was saved by the bell because I got to leave school/class. Apparently the bell saved some people from impending death. Gotta hand it to that bell; it's a lifesaver. Should get some sort of award or something awesome like that.
Phrase: "Son of a Gun"
There are a few theories about this one. (1) The phrase originated as 'son of a military man' (i.e. a gun). The most commonly repeated version in this strand is that the British Navy used to allow women to live on naval ships. Any child born on board who had uncertain paternity would be listed in the ship's log as 'son of a gun'. (2) The term is euphemistic and derived as a conveniently rhyming alternative to 'son of a bitch/whore'.
Thoughts: How does 'gun' rhyme with 'bitch' or 'whore'? Am I missing something here? The first explanation seems to make more sense to me. Although now I'm picturing a baby gun with a little wig on it's head...
Phrase: "Peeping Tom"
The name comes from the legend of Lady Godiva's naked ride through the streets of Coventry, in order to persuade her husband to alleviate the harsh taxes on the town's poor. The story goes that the townsfolk agreed not to observe Godiva as she passed by, but that Peeping Tom broke that trust and spied on her.
Thoughts: Bad Tom! No watching a naked woman ride through the streets on a horse! How do they even know 'Tom' saw her? What if someone named 'Yuggle' (yeah whatever weird name I'm horrible at naming stuff don't hate) had seen her? Would we have the phrase 'Peeping Yuggle'?
Phrase: "Going to Hell in a Handbasket"
It isn't at all obvious why 'handbasket' was chosen as the preferred vehicle to convey people to hell. One theory on the origin of the phrase is that derives from the use of handbaskets in the guillotining method of capital punishment. 'Going to hell in a handbasket' seems to be just a colorful version of 'going to hell', in the same sense as 'going to the dogs'. 'In a handbasket' is an alliterative intensifier which gives the expression a catchy ring. There doesn't appear to be any particular significance to 'handbasket' apart from the alliteration.
Thoughts: What exactly is a handbasket? A basket for your hand? Great now I have an image of someone's hand being a basket. That would be pretty obnoxious, although, it would be pretty easy to carry a lot of stuff that way.
Okay so another long post here, but oh well. These idioms are fun although it's kind of hard to find good ones I can make comments on. I probably could do at least one more post of a few more eventually when I feel like my blog needs some attention. It's so demanding. If you have any recommendations as to what I should blog about, I need them; apparently I'm very unimaginative when it comes to these things. Anyways, thanks so much for reading I appreciate it! :]
Phrase: "Raining Cats and Dogs"
One possible origin is that the phrase derives from mythology. Dogs and wolves were attendants to Odin, the god of storms, and sailors associated them with rain. Witches, who often took the form of their familiars - cats, are supposed to have ridden the wind. Well, some evidence would be nice. There doesn't appear to be any to support this idea. It has also been suggested that cats and dogs were washed from roofs during heavy weather; which obviously doesn't make sense. Another suggestion is that 'raining cats and dogs' comes from a version of the French word 'catadoupe', meaning waterfall but there's no evidence for this either.
Thoughts: I always had the inane hope that there was a case where it actually rained literal cats and dogs. Then I'd get to go swimming in a sea of (hopefully) cute and fluffy animals and that's one of my life goals (obviously).
Phrase: "Take the Cake"
It is widely supposed that this phrase originated with cake-walk strutting competitions, which were commonplace in the black community of the southern USA in the 19th and early 20th centuries. In those, couples would be judged on their style in the 'cake-walk'. The winners were said to have 'taken the cake', which was often the prize. As early as the 5th century BC the Greeks used 'take the cake' as symbolic of a prize for a victory.
Thoughts: This is disappointing. I was hoping for a story about how someone literally stole a cake and ate it or something. Is the 'cake-walk' like the 'cat-walk'? 'Cake' and 'cat' do both start with the same two letters.
Phrase: "Make A Bee-Line For"
The phrase derives from the behavior of bees. When a forager bee finds a source of nectar it returns to the hive and communicates its location to the other bees, using a display called the Waggle Dance. The other bees are then able to fly directly to the source of the nectar, i.e. 'make a beeline' for it.
Thoughts: I cracked up when I read the 'Waggle Dance' part. Did you? If you didn't, try saying it aloud and not laughing. If you still don't laugh you have issues and should be committed to a mental institution (just kidding but seriously it's funny).
Phrase: "Saved By the Bell"
This is boxing slang that came into being in the latter half of the 19th century. A boxer who is in danger of losing a bout can be 'saved' from defeat by the bell that marks the end of a round. There is a widespread notion that the phrase is from the 17th century and that it describes people being saved from being buried alive by using a coffin with a bell attached. The idea being that, if they were buried but later revived, they could ring the bell and be saved from an unpleasant death. The idea is certainly plausible as the fear of burial alive was and is real.
Thoughts: Kinda makes me feel bad for saying I was saved by the bell because I got to leave school/class. Apparently the bell saved some people from impending death. Gotta hand it to that bell; it's a lifesaver. Should get some sort of award or something awesome like that.
Phrase: "Son of a Gun"
There are a few theories about this one. (1) The phrase originated as 'son of a military man' (i.e. a gun). The most commonly repeated version in this strand is that the British Navy used to allow women to live on naval ships. Any child born on board who had uncertain paternity would be listed in the ship's log as 'son of a gun'. (2) The term is euphemistic and derived as a conveniently rhyming alternative to 'son of a bitch/whore'.
Thoughts: How does 'gun' rhyme with 'bitch' or 'whore'? Am I missing something here? The first explanation seems to make more sense to me. Although now I'm picturing a baby gun with a little wig on it's head...
Phrase: "Peeping Tom"
The name comes from the legend of Lady Godiva's naked ride through the streets of Coventry, in order to persuade her husband to alleviate the harsh taxes on the town's poor. The story goes that the townsfolk agreed not to observe Godiva as she passed by, but that Peeping Tom broke that trust and spied on her.
Thoughts: Bad Tom! No watching a naked woman ride through the streets on a horse! How do they even know 'Tom' saw her? What if someone named 'Yuggle' (yeah whatever weird name I'm horrible at naming stuff don't hate) had seen her? Would we have the phrase 'Peeping Yuggle'?
Phrase: "Going to Hell in a Handbasket"
It isn't at all obvious why 'handbasket' was chosen as the preferred vehicle to convey people to hell. One theory on the origin of the phrase is that derives from the use of handbaskets in the guillotining method of capital punishment. 'Going to hell in a handbasket' seems to be just a colorful version of 'going to hell', in the same sense as 'going to the dogs'. 'In a handbasket' is an alliterative intensifier which gives the expression a catchy ring. There doesn't appear to be any particular significance to 'handbasket' apart from the alliteration.
Thoughts: What exactly is a handbasket? A basket for your hand? Great now I have an image of someone's hand being a basket. That would be pretty obnoxious, although, it would be pretty easy to carry a lot of stuff that way.
Okay so another long post here, but oh well. These idioms are fun although it's kind of hard to find good ones I can make comments on. I probably could do at least one more post of a few more eventually when I feel like my blog needs some attention. It's so demanding. If you have any recommendations as to what I should blog about, I need them; apparently I'm very unimaginative when it comes to these things. Anyways, thanks so much for reading I appreciate it! :]
9/13/10
Reflections
Recently I was inspired to take out my old diary. I was never really consistent with the entries and wrote sporadically. I'm obviously not going to use this post to explain my life story or anything because if I haven't told you then you shouldn't know. And only I need to know the stuff I wrote in my diary. I can tell where I started developing sarcasm from my diary entries which is pretty amusing. My first attempts at sarcasm were pretty fail. I drew things once in a while and they were really bad but looking back at them makes me laugh. Most of my diary entries are in pencil, and I can see the spots that I went back and corrected my past self's grammar the last time I looked at it. I think I was a pretty dull person when I was younger, I have an entry two sentences long saying that I played video games all day and finished a report or something. I was also very vague in a lot of my entries for some reason which I now regret. I saw where my aunt and uncle gave me CDs for my birthday and I don't know which ones they were even though I would really like to know. The two most recent entries I have in my diary were pretty strange to look back on. Things have changed a lot in a little less than a year. Those entries were pretty angry, but almost everything I was angry about at the time don't make me mad anymore. With 33 sentences that start with "I hate that" I sure ranted a lot. I don't recall any memories, but the emotions at that time I do remember. I know at the time what was happening sucked, but I made it through and I feel like I emerged victorious over my old perspective on life.
So during this post I had this song in my head from Mulan. It is relevant because it's called "Reflection" so don't go thinking this is totally ADD. It's only a little ADD.
So during this post I had this song in my head from Mulan. It is relevant because it's called "Reflection" so don't go thinking this is totally ADD. It's only a little ADD.
9/6/10
Dear N00b Brother
This post is to you, younger but not so little brother. You who enjoys making fun of someone named 'Ken' at red lights with me. You who call everything I do 'illegal'. And you who makes me so frustrated that I would like to throw a pie at you but don't because you would like it. Our bonding experiences have included: lightsaber duels, dance-offs, and the game of "who can get to the car first to ride shotgun". Maybe you don't wish me a happy birthday until the day after, but it's fun because now I can reciprocate that. Which reminds me of a few years ago when you had a birthday party and your friends were all 20 minutes late and I, being the evil older sister, went outside around the house, rang the doorbell, and ran away from the door. You went to the door excited to see a friend but was disappointed to see that it was in fact nobody (unless your friend was wearing an invisibility cloak at the time). Even though you never let me play video games with you anymore (probably because I win too much), I know you want to preserve your dignity so I let it slide. But then, I tell everyone how bad you are anyways. Proclamations of “You’re so cheap” do not help with your reputation and you should learn this. And in our recent trip back to childhood via Neopets, I have already beat you so many times in Beach Volleyball that I would need another chalkboard to continue the tally marks. At every chance you can you mock me, but it's okay because according to Rachel from Big Brother, "The highest form of flattery is being mocked". Or something like that I don't remember the quote. And now I end this post. I have rightfully called you a n00b and you deserve this highest title as my brother.
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