Come Clean

One person's lie can become another's truth. I've been thinking about this and realizing how bad this is. With one lie, you completely change what someone else believes to be true. They can construct a completely wrong reality which they think is right just because of what you tell them. Sometimes this is for the better, but usually it's bad to weave a web of lies so intricate. Lies don't even have to be intricate to be able to hurt someone.

There's always the debate of whether it's ever okay to lie. Clearly there are differing opinions on this, but mine is that it's okay to lie as long as there's a very good reason for it. Deceiving someone isn't good, but if it's to protect them then an exception can be made.

I really hate to admit this, but I do lie. Often. I don't lie about anything big (usually), but I sometimes construct things just because I feel like it. It may sound strange, but I want to be caught in one of my lies because if I just keep getting away with it I'll just keep doing it. I need the consequence for the action to stop. It used to be difficult for me to think of a lie, but now anytime I need one it comes to my head so quickly that I barely even have to think. I can pretty much construct an excuse for anything that comes my way and make it have just the right amount of detail to it so I can get away with it. The only thing that doesn't make me really scared about how easy it is for me to lie is that I find it hard to lie to people I care about much more difficult. Sometimes I even see how far I can go with lying until I get caught like it's a game. It's probably a problem that I do this. I'm trying to stop feeling like I always have to make excuses for everything, but it's a hard habit to stop. Lying can be so much easier than telling the truth.

A lot of times I want so badly to tell whomever I lied to that what I told them was wrong. But I know that will make things worse in every case. Being told you were lied to is not something people like to hear. I know I always expect people to tell me the truth, but I guess that makes me a hypocrite.

[Post title is the name of the song by Hilary Duff]